CONSCIENTIOUS EXISTENCE
She was. She is. She always will be. But she
isn't all the same. Yeah, time changes, people change with it. But some change
for better. And some become worse off. But amazingly, she seemed to change for
no apparent reason. And she still seems to adjust for no apparent reason. It
was inevitable according to her. It was the obvious thing for her. To
constantly evolve her among the various echelons of our culture, the good old
Indian tradition. And it used to be a matter of privilege for every girl, to
imbibe in her, the ethics and etiquette of socially acceptable norms and
supposedly spiritually fulfilling life.
And like in the case of any normal sane Indian
family, sans cosmopolitans, she is the epitome of our success and well being in
general. The relentless approach, a tireless job and deriving happiness from
everyone happiness are such admirable traits, yet in-discernibly underrated.
She spent her entire childhood, enjoying one of
the most spectacular lives, the life of a carefree child, who is as comfortable
in her urban confinements, as in the rural fields. Who didn't mind sharing
their time with sibling and cousins, plenty of them are there. And growing up
was fun. What if the mother was a bit strict, “let's head to college!” were some
of the instantaneous reactions. And college too was one hell lot of a fun for
her. New friends became good friends, good friends became best friends &
best friends became friends for life. And the religiousness with which they
entretenir their friendship, is a great example of the values she has earned
from her childhood and which serves her in good stead till now.
The life full of sweetness and innocent mischievousness conspired to transform itself into a long, endless trail of heightened wisdom and responsibilities. That elevation of her simple, carefree life, gratified her to oblige to the demands of the new role of her existence. Really, our life is like that. And as Shakespeare once said, it's a stage on which we play various roles and show varied emotions to underline the antics of our current character. And she transitioned smoothly from a happy go lucky college goer to a responsible bride, still possessing the naivety and anxiety of a teenager, though slowly developing into a mature head. Still her innocent charm and a zeal for shouldering the burden of an entire household.
And since then, she never shied away from those
responsibilities. Those tireless hours of seemingly unending work, day in day
out, were gradually taking a toll on her. Still, she never complained, completely
content with her job. A job with no payments, no perks, no holidays, no status.
But a job of immense value, sheer hard work and some ingenuine management
skills, of which even an MBA holder would be proud of. All her world was now
comprised of her family, the family she originated from, to the family she
stepped into.
And few years down the line, her greatest and most valuable possession are
her endearing partner and her kid, the kid she had brought into existence and
nurtured him to grow.
And then
started a life. A life full of selfless service and sacrifice of her own whims
and wishes. A sacrifice of her priorities, to prioritize her family. And
gradually she became a super efficient human machine. A machine, as
multitasking as you will ever see.
It was inevitable. It was destined to be like
that for her. Was it so? At least she thinks it was. And contrary to have
regrets of losing that freedom of childhood and a seemingly boring job to do,
she feels absolutely at peace with it. In fact she derives all her happiness
from this supposedly dreary and drab routine.
And she is proud of being a mother. A mother of a
boy, who according to her has given enough reasons of pride and happiness. But
that doesn't stop her from expecting more. Expecting more from his abilities.
All she wants is taking as much care of her better half and her son. That's all
she loves. That's all she wants.
She changed for no apparent reason.
-GEET
BEHERA
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